the color of my life

i haven't blogged for a while but have been keeping a journal. that bird is back - the one in the top of the sycamore tree that sings spiritedly on my walk into the school building. just as the breathtaking show of autumn color came to a closing, the happy singing bird returned to serenade me on my way to work!

i love to breathe - to inhale the new and exhale the old. i try to breathe so deeply that all my alveoli become filled - and i visualize the miraculous physicality of breathing - a parable for God's spirit in me. i see the black replaced with white and the drabs replaced with brilliant hues.

O give thanks to the LORD, for he is good; for his steadfast love endures for ever.
—1 Chronicles 16:34

i made some intelligent choices in my life - had glimpses of the "big picture" and acted accordingly to that truth. but WOW! i have also made STUPID choices founded on maximum selfishness, empty brokenness, haunting fear.

and when you realize that the beautiful color in your life is just outrageous generosity from the Creator of the Universe - gratitude abounds!

and when you grasp the truth that every moment is a given moment - you want to SAVOR them, taste them, enjoy them.

so when you get what you don't deserve - it's a real good thing. (lyrics from newsboys)

O God, when I am feeling self-sufficient and proud, help me to remember that nothing I am or have is of my own creating, and let me always be ready to give you thanks.