LIVING IN THE NOW

B L I S S, originally uploaded by jaki good.

bliss is living in the now - but easier said than done.
joy is savoring this very moment - being completely available to this present -
but haunting failures from the past and ambition drenched goals for the future
often suffocate the wonder of this very minute.

there is a certain safety in reliving the past or hiding out in "what could be"
but then we miss so much.

being available to the NOW is dangerous
because it brings both ecstatic joy and heartwrenching pain -
but it is true, gritty living.

i haven't always lived in the present and still struggle with it.
i am so adept at insulating myself from pain - i often slip out the back when it knocks at my front door.
i jet set to other places and leave the unwanted visitor unattended.
but when i return, they are still waiting for me to "deal" with them.
closing your eyes doesn't make you invisible.

i want to always embrace the now - and not miss the details.
the light filtering in this room, the sounds of Carter making up a new song back in the den,
the sound of Landre telling him to be quiet!,
the rise and fall of my chest as i breathe........

don't let the moment get away from me before i live in it.