p a u s e

today the scenes overwhelm me -
videos and snapshot memories pound and ricochet inside my head like hail.
grief rises like a rock in my throat -
i have suffered great loss.
now never seems like an opportune time to deal with stuff....
so i come to the pond and
lift myself to the sky and
with my breath press
pause...
i have more healing to do and many scenes to immortalize before i face that hell.


p a u s e
the salmon layers of sundown dance across the water..
the lily pads stretch to catch the diminishing rays...
the reflections so closely mask reality, like the shadows on plato’s cave -
this moment is a marker on eternity’s number line.

i will take this shortcut to happiness...
procrastination has so many benefits...
it allows serendipitous acts of God to strike and send the world scrambling...
putting things off allows the Divine to work its magic...

today i watched the sun sink behind the last purple hill and i inhaled as much as i could hold ..
the video that plays in my head shows a van door opening automatically at an inopportune time..............................................
carpe diem