i miss my boy. i want to rewind time and have that little boy on my lap again. mason has brought so much joy to my life. my heart feels so heavy and i can't get rid of this lump in my throat.
he hasn't even been gone a week and i already miss him so much.
i know he's following his dreams. i know he's seeking God's will for his life.
but i still hurt. and i feel so sad.
i didn't anticipate this void.
i kissed mason goodnight every night - even if he was aleady asleep. sometimes i would just look at him while he was sleeping and wonder why God blessed me with such a wonderful boy.
all i can do now is pray for strength - and pray for mason, my beautiful boy. i have two little ones who are missing their big brother....and my husband, who keeps saving food for mason, temporarily forgetting that Mason won't be home to eat it.
i can't believe i feel so devastated.
i've been so blessed.....
but it's so hard to let go.
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Your blogs about Mason are making me appreciate the time I have with Paul right now. Even though I'd like him to sleep through the night I need to realize this time is precious and won't last for long.
Hang in there!
Oh, Jaki! You keep making me cry!!! The good news is... You and Mason both have your hearts in the right place to make this transition as simple as possible-
Thomas Jefferson once said, " The happiest moments of my life have been the few which I have experianced at home in the bosom of my family."
you're making me sad and i'm going to be with him! you and my mom need to start a support group
If you and Cheryl start a support group I'd have to join. lol! It's going to be hard without Mason and Valerie around : (
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