Mason left for college today...he's going to Wheaton, a liberal arts college near Chicago. I thought I was ready....but I can't stop crying...the flood gates are open wide. I am so excited for him and know God has great things in store for him....and I know Mason is ready to leave the nest and fly...no doubts about that.But the finality of this moment overwhelms me. He's leaving home today. He's starting a new chapter in his life without us.
Mason has brought so much joy into our lives - I couldn't ask for a better son. His love and devotion for God is so evident in his life...he has it so much more together than I did at his age.
This is one of those momentous occasions when parents start wondering - ,"Did I do my best....did I prepare my child for the precarious future?"
I have some regrets for sure....I wasn't a perfect parent. I had Mason when I was 26 years old and wasn't completely grown up myself. Steve and I "practiced" parenting on him. But God blessed our efforts to raise him in a real Christian home.
Mason is a passionate young man - gives 110% to causes he believes in. He has financially supported a child from a 3rd world country for several years now. He has such a heart for the spiritual welfare of his friends. He loves LOVES loves politics and knows so much about it that it's hard to debate him. Mason has never followed the crowd..he thinks for himself and really thinks things through. He can be impulsive (like his mom) but in a good, responsible way.
Mason has the best qualities of Steve and me - my passion and creativity coupled with Steve's integrity and commitment.
I am going to miss him so much. I love cooking for him and watching him play bass at in the worship band and play sports - soccer, football, basketball, track, and tennis.
Things have always come so easily for him, sports, school, learning something new, like french or guitar - but it's never gone to his head.
I know how blessed I am to have a son like Mason. I have thoroughly enjoyed raising him, teaching him and even learning from him.
But all that doesn't make today any easier. I have a heavy heart and a lump in my throat. Even though Mason left his bedroom a mess, it still seems hauntingly empty.
I know this is part of life - but right now, it's one of my least favorite parts.
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You have raised such a great son. The youth room is going to feel empty without Mason around.
You have raised an amazing young man. My kids are going to miss him a lot. Ellie will have no one to kiss on the lips, lol, I would worry if it were any boy but Mason. Silas will miss having someone lift him up so he can touch the ceiling. I am going to miss Mason's conversation, his wisdom and the great insight that he has in situations. You have truely raised an amazing young man that will be greatly missed.
Your words remind me to take in every moment cause someday this chapter will be over. sniff, sniff
My heart goes out to you and Steve, for there's something about that empty bedroom. Just can't see that all is well in your world with all the bodies safely tucked in each night, and the loss of seeing, hearing, hugging. Tears need no reasoning, just emotion. I'm also filled with joy at the fun you're going to have sharing this new chapter of life. With such a wonderful son, lots of joy.
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